No Regrets

I hadn’t really looked into anything off of Kate Voegele’s new album until last night, but omg, I think I have my new theme song. You can hear it on her myspace but here are the lyrics.

99 Times - Kate Voegele

So, you see
You’ve got me back again for more
And it seems
Your song is in my head
This is war
Mystery; how I could feel you breathe me

I was sure you would keep
Every promise; you would keep
Every word

Well,
I try to put your stories in line
But nothing adds up right

For every 99 times
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren’t lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I’m getting out tonight
And you’re not invited

Its a shame
That you left me hanging like you did
It was brave
But it was much more foolish
Don’t you think?
Cause you know I wont be satisfied
Until you realize

For every 99 times
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren’t lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I’m getting out tonight
And you’re not invited

These things are oh, all so typical
These things are unforgivable
I’m gone and you’re invisible now
Don’t let me catch you followin’
Don’t ask, cause I’m not offering
You’ve caused enough of my suffering, oh

For every 99 times
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren’t lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I’m getting out tonight

For every 99 times
You looked me in the eye,
You looked me in the eye
And swore you weren’t lying
Well, I was so blind
I never saw the signs
I’m getting out tonight
And you’re not invited

A single swallow with cherry blossoms to represent a new beginning of my life.

Meaning of a Cherry Blossom Tattoo.
“For the Chinese the cherry blossom is a very significant symbol of power. Typically it represent a feminine beauty and sexuality and often holds an idea of power or feminine dominance.”
“For the Japanese the cherry blossom holds very different meaning. The cherry blossom is a very delicate flower that blooms for a very short time. For the Japanese this represents the transience of life. This concept ties in very deeply with the fundamental teachings of Buddhism that state all life is suffering and transitory. The Japanese have long held strong to the Buddhist belief of the transitory nature of life and it is very noble to not get too attached to a particular outcome or not become emotional because it will all pass in time.”

By the way. Yes. IT HURT. lol. Foot tattoos are always very painful. They have definitely been my most painful ones. This one took about three and a half hours, with some breaks thrown in. It was very painful. I was worried I might not be able to get it all in one sitting, but I pushed myself to do it, and I’m very glad I did. It was done night before last. Yesterday, it was badly swollen, to the point that it hurt to put any weight on it. Today, it’s much better. Maybe because I fell asleep at 2am with my foot propped on the wall and woke up at 8am with it still there, so it spent 6 hours elevated. lol.

It hurt like hell. But as the saying goes, “tattoos hurt and I like it.” I really truly do. It’s always worth it.

I have been introduced to the world of Stoplights. Omg. I now believe that every night of drunken fun should be closed with a Stoplight.

That thing… I have no idea what was in it, other than some cranberry juice. haha. But it was GOOD. And I had been carrying a good buzz all night from about 4 screwdrivers and 2 shots of something with vodka and coffee (I don’t even like coffee, but I wasn’t even tasting anything at that point, haha). Got the stoplight followed by one final screwdriver and I’m rather proud that I even made it to the car. I was feeling good, and I slept good.

I went with April, who was my best friend from 2nd-10th grade. We kind of lost touch for a while, but we’re doing a lot of visiting now that I’m back in town. Her husband, Chad, and his co-worker, Gimpy, were with us. Along with some other friends of April’s who met us there. We talked and danced and drank for a while and then some games of pool and darts were played, and then the jukebox was played and lots of talking was done… It was all pretty awesome. I had a GREAT time out with them. The conversation did get a little fun when we talked about scumsucking cheaters and the ways they tend to hurt themselves more than anyone else… But, mostly the conversation was lighthearted. Hehe. A lot of talk about me and Apey in school and how we’re such polar opposites, but tend to get on so well.

And amazingly? It was the first time I ever went out to the bar and got drunk with any of my friends from high school. I sacrificed such a lifestyle for something that I valued far above it… but with that gone, and my son tucked in safely at my parents’ house? Yea. I was pretty much worry-free last night. And I haven’t laughed so much or so hard in years.

Oh. And I totally got hit on. That felt good.

And? I got some good pictures.

“God, I feel so frustrated lately.” *whistles the tune* (Okay, not really, I’ve never been able to whistle.

Today, I got a few things done that had to be done. Bah. I have so much stuff to do, but a lot of it hinges on talking to one person, and we’ve been playing phone tag for a week. I just can’t get him when he’s in the office. Eventually, I will.

So when I was done doing what I could today, I treated myself to a haircut.

Then, in exchange for some baby-sitting, I got a really crappy old tattoo covered up. I was originally just going to fix it, I’ve been talking about that for quite some time. But, it just doesn’t fit who I am anymore. I don’t need the original design anymore. So I gave Trai free rein and I love the results.

Here’s the original.

And here’s my new ink. YAY! I’m so excited about it. Darkness always gives way to sunlight, as long as your eyes are open and you’re ready for it.

I got flowers from a certain someone today! How sweet!

I get a note from the universe (aka tut.com) in my email every day. I don’t always check it, but somehow, on the days that I do, it always seems fitting. Today, I got this:

“If you’re really honest, Angela, you have to admit that things today, in your most amazing life, at this most amazing time in history, are far better than they’ve ever, ever been.
Well done,
The Universe

And we’ve only just begun, Angela.”

Oh honey, I believe that!

I think that this might be my favorite Through-the-Viewfinder photograph so far. It isn’t perfect by any stretch of the imagination, but… It just feels like home. It perfectly encompasses all of the love and comfort I get out of this man. The thing is, I started out taking pictures of Jason sleeping last night, because he was restless and his eyes are shadowed even in sleep and he just looks so tired all the time. I wanted to be able to look back and remember how hard this time at NAS Jacksonville has been on him, on us, so that in years to come I can remember that it was worse once.

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I am about to transport you back in time (again).

On this day in 2006, I took the following photograph.

Three years ago, Will was hanging out on the balcony of our last apartment in Atlanta. Less than two weeks later, we packed up a moving van and drove 300 miles to our new home in Jacksonville, FL.

Well, hell, I guess we HAVE been doing it wrong the past four years!!!

How to Make a Baby

Here are my Weekly Winners!

Easter egg, waiting to be discovered

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